the limiting belief - DON'T ASK for what you want!

date of entry: june 28

the other day i kept finding myself thinking & within conversations with self saying “i don’t know how to ask for help.”

i recall now that as a child growing up, whenever i asked for anything i always felt like i was being a bother/pest to my parents - because essentially wanting things meant spending money & money was such a sore subject & hardly ever available to get the things i would WANT. yes of course my parents provided for my basic needs - food, clothing & shelter. however, when it came to WANTING anything - going anywhere, wanting to experience something new - it was always such a tug-o-war & teeth pulling. i would always be afraid to ask for fear of hearing no & ultimately not getting what i asked for!

clearly, this fear carried over into teenage years & adulthood even now at 31 years old as i experience such difficulty in asking for what i want. it felt like it was wrong to want anything! i felt like i was just supposed to be satisfied with what was made available to me & not ask for anything else. being a child i couldn’t make sense of that really!

& so i became content with the life i saw & knew here in the community that i grew up in Horse Guards, Jamaica, the life that i saw all over Jamaica, no matter where i went – a life of stress, strain, hard work in exchange for little pay, clutter & overall lack.

BUT i’ve adopted this quote wholeheartedly since becoming a part of the IAV community & MSA’s teachings “FEEL THE FEAR & DO IT ANYWAYS!” – so now i ask all the time for what i may need/want, even though money is still a bit of a tender topic for me (i’m still working on it!). in times when i recognize that i’m hesitant in asking out of fear of hearing no – then i remind myself that “the answer is either yes or no & i lose nothing by asking!”

we gotta release that BULLSHIT belief system fam! ask the universe courageously & boldly for what YOU WANT/NEED/DESIRE – it doesn’t matter – let your voice be heard throughout every fiber of this universe!

making the connection between asking & receiving (just as there’s a connection between giving & receiving) – was a phenomenal moment for me. if i never ask for what i want – HOW WILL I EVER BE OPEN TO RECEIVE IT!!!!????

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- santana chevel

"infinite spirits expressed in the IAM. iam in you, as you are in me"